There was a phase in my life, just recently, perhaps months or a semester, when my peace of mind was disturbed and I cried most of nights without any reason. I felt pain in my heart, not knowing what was missing. Was it because of my job, savings, current situation in my house, or the fact that I’m single? I felt the whole world against me, and I was left out. Dwelling on sorrow and it made me depressed more. The more I showed my vulnerability to people, the more I felt sad and empty.
Thanks God, He called me to join a retreat for emotional wounds healing last February, on Valentine’s day. There, I was reminded by God’s love. God’s love is enough. Things could be worse but I survived. He saved me from the things that didn’t mean to me, and I never missed the things that were meant to me. People may hurt or disappoint me, because they had weakness, because they might be lack of love. Yes, only hurt people hurt people. And I realized I was the one who hurt people too because I felt insecure. I’m sorry.
The key is TO FORGIVE AND TO LOVE.
– Understand that God’s love is enough. Be grateful and spread love.
– Forgive yourself and love yourself. You are amazing. God made you with his hand beautifully, he plans great things for your life, and he forgives you unconditionally.
– Forgive others who hurt you. They may feel hurt, too. Their insecurities and weakness perhaps caused them in trouble to be nice with you, to love you. Be kind.
– Ask forgiveness from the ones you hurt. Perhaps, this person has gone and you don’t have any idea where they are now. Just imagine they are around and pray for them. It also helps for reconciliation, as well. Perhaps you have done every single incredible things to reconcile, but in the end, you hurt them more. Pray and God will change their heart, and your heart as well.
Set apart girl. I knew this terminology when I read a book titled “When God writes your story” around three years ago and loved the idea so much. Set apart girl is actually a girl who surrenders her life wholeheartedly to pursue Jesus Christ. She guards her heart and protects her femininity from the world’s distraction, such as shopping, socializing, texting, facebook-ing, watching movies, dating, etc. Even if, she meets a guy, they do not flirt, hold hands, kiss, etc. Enough said, I decided to follow the life style but then completely forgot about this.
Life offers so many interesting worldly things. Sometimes, we feel not good enough and it makes us spend majority of time to make us more attractive like going to a barbershop or beauty center or gym more regularly, or waste our money to buy new clothes, make-up kits, or sometimes the lonely feeling comes and makes us try so hard to maintain the relationship that we think good ones. It’s all tempting to consume our prayer time to build and maintain our best relationship with God.
I’m not saying that a girl doesn’t need to go to a beauty center, gym, put a make-up on her face, or talk with other people. Sometimes she needs to. But…. what’s her purpose? Is it because she respects her body and healthiness or she obsessed with herself?
My experiences are ups and downs. There was a time when I feel so happy by living following this life style. Then, it became an obsession. I joined some non-profit organization, became a volunteer here and there and… I was so frustrated.. I felt what I was doing was not enough and I wanted to do something bigger and bigger. I did expect recognition in return. So, the pure motivation was shifting to unhealthy obsession and selfish motives. Or there was a time I felt so happy as a single young lady but there were so many many couples, even couples from my religious community, showing their romances on social media or in front of my eyes. It doubt me if a set-apart girl will find a true, noble man someday. So, I flirted to prove that I’m attractive (though I keep my vows to prevent any physical contact, I know I’m losing my pure femininity by flirting with words).
I re-treated myself last weekend, during Valentine’s day. I was kind of reminded of this concept of life style. I read the official magazine on setapart official website and found it is so encouraging to detach all the worldly things and keep my eyes to do what is good, not for me, but for Him. Not my way, but His way. Not my time, but His time. It may not be easy to ensure the motivation will always be pure or there is no distraction ahead. But, I believe that, like I quote from an article to a monthly magazine titled purposeful feminity, a girl can examine her motives behind why she spend time doing what she does. Is it to serve God’s purpose or for temporal and selfish purposes?
Jakarta is hosting an expo to celebrate the 100th anniversary of Doraemon. It’s located in Ancol and open until March 8, 2015. Wow. Never really into Doraemon since my childhood, however, it’s tempting to have a look, have fun, and get some cool pictures and merchandises.
We had 20% off discount using BCA credit card/flazz for the entrance ticket, so it’s around 79.000 IDR per person (Normal price IDR 90.000).
Before we got in, we were kind of stuck in a playground area where all my friends tried their luck to win the prize. This is “Catch a duck” game. You fish the duck and see the number it has at the bottom. If 0, it means you get nothing. If 1, it means you get the smallest prize (keychain), if 2, it means you get the one red pillow above. If 3, it means you get a big doraemon doll (refer to my ticket picture)
Last but not least, it’s time to go shopping. Lots of cute merchandises and I got these, doraemon with dragon’s hat (I was born in Dragon Year), a classic red box (Chinese new year is coming!), and medicine boxes for.. well, I don’t know yet. ;p
After leaving the expo area, some of my friends tried dorayaki in cafe Doraemon.
All in all, it’s cute and I thought I would not put myself in a very difficult situation to take cute pictures or buy the merchandise, since I guessed it’s all for KIDS. But, yeah,,, can’t resist the cuteness! :p
So, if you haven’t come yet, just make your time to have fun there!
Jakarta oh Jakarta! It’s been raining most of time lately and it worsens traffic and increases potential flood. But, there are always good things to enjoy. Guess, I found an interesting place to eat, hang out, and kill the time lately. Yes, it’s pasar santa (official instagram: http://instagram.com/pasarsanta/)
Actually, this is a place full of creative young people selling foods, accessories, t-shirt and anything on the very top floor of a traditional market. This is a place where the touch of creativity shift the function of traditional market.
Been there twice and it was so nice!
Second, I came at 1 pm on Sunday and… only some food counters were already opened. I tried “sate dombrut” and “Geram – burGER RAMen”.
Around 3 pm when I was about to go home, other food counters then started taking orders… And amazingly, one of recommended places by my friends, Papricano, has a very long queue line. There, I ordered Burrito and Quesadilla. Now, I know why people were really willing to queue. It’s cheap and very delicious.
So, if you are in Jakarta and looking for a place to hang out with your friends and something unique to eat, please come to Pasar Santa. However, since it’s a traditional market, don’t expect the room would be air-conditioned. It’s quite hot, anyway. The darker a day, the more crowded it will be. :)
In the ground floor, there was a section of counters selling action figures. It’s new since I never thought I would see things like this in a traditional market.
Other than that, of course you can buy daily products, meats, and vegetables there. They keep selling them. So, these young people can do shopping in a traditional market like what our (grand)parents do. :)
In the beginning of December 2014, I had office outing in Bali (again). I guess it’s a good opportunity to explore one part of Bali that I was very curious about, which is Ubud. There’s no beaches around, just a village full of artist, surrounded by rice field, where you can get closer to local houses and temples, and museums. In short, I asked for one day extension to enjoy Ubud. Officially the outing took 3 days however the last day was not really effective for office matters. So, I could spend two days in Ubud. Wondering the best way to enjoy Ubud, I decided to take a cycling tour.
I booked a tour by Bali Eco and was picked up very early in my official outing hotel. I was not by myself, since I was accompanied by my colleague. Here, we met the other 10 tourists, all of them coming from foreign countries, which were Vietnam and Australia.
At first stop, we stopped at phenomenal Tegallang Rice Field Terrace. It’s a a very short stop to take pictures.
Then, we had breakfast in a restaurant when we could see the lake view of Mount Batur.
Coincidentally, we met other colleagues who were taking Harley Davidson motor touring.
Then, the tour took us to a coffee plantation where they explained us about the plants, how luwak coffee was made, and etc. We got coffee testing too. :)
Finally, we started to bike!! During cycling, we stopped many times just to visit the local house and temple, rice mill, rice fields.
I was so happy I took the tour by Bali Eco Cycling Tour. It was a bit expensive since it costed us 450.000 IDR (per person). However, the tour guide was awesome, talkative, and informative. I also felt secure since they really prioritized our safety. They provided water and bananas for the break. In the end of the tour, they took us to a restaurant where the food was very tasty.